Relgious Reading Writing Worlds?

1:33am, it is quiet early. I cannot shut my eyes and fall just yet, there is something blocking my bodys ignorance. The wind is howling creating a shutter throughout my blinds a long with the rattle of my door. Music comforting my lonliness. I have just completed Criminal which is an incredible book by Casper Walsh. He is surely an inspiration to some drug addicts in this cruel world. I would be more lost if I was in their shoes. Do they even have faith? for religion for god? I sometimes wonder what life would be like without a supportive mentor in my life; like god. People have so many different opinons in what to believe in and some days it is conveyed that reglionism is phony. What are we supposed to believe? That nothing is real? Humans are just like any other organism in this place called the universe? Hard to understand really but it may just be because I have grown up with a nan devoted to God. I have to thank her one for all those painful Saturday nights she would drag me to church and fource me to listen to an old man preach words I didn't even understand. I only really went because I got Mc Donalds afterwards as a treat. Though one of these days I wouldn't mind going...It is always refreshing to be told how important life is and to cherish it to the best of your abilities. Which I always do, except those one off days when happiness disapears before my eyes and my body is filled with remorse. We all go through it. I am contemplating lighting up another cigerette to ease my stressed mind. For, all I have been lesuring myself with is studying for exam block occuring next week. I feel I haven't wrote something in a few days when really it has only been 3. Enough for me though, writing is something I find as an easy way out of the truth. Words are easier to read then hearing it. When you read its only you and the fabricated characters you oh so wish where sometimes real. But regardless reading and writing soothes my aching and makes me feel better. I have 2 books to read which is great, I can find a way to burry myself into other peoples worlds and judge it to my own.